Visa or Mastercard? Priceless!

My experience of getting ready to change my life has been God making things happen while I do minimal work.

While this may seem trivial, if you know me at all, you'll know that I like the details of things. I like knowing that my friends like/dislike certain foods. I enjoy knowing that I can put together a conference and have the details all settled for each piece of it way ahead of time. I love organizing and planning (just don't ask me about my bedroom!).

So this realization that I've had to "do" very little in the process of moving my life to Africa is monumental. Yes, I had to fill out an application for a passport and wait in line at the agency. But in a strange way I felt seen and known, as the woman who processed my application said, "You need to get a visa, right?" Click, click, click...ok, you can pick up your passport on Monday." This seems remarkable to me having applied for it in the mid afternoon of Friday! I needed to actually go to the store and look around to find leggings, expecting to pay an inordinate sum and finding them for $7. Why is it that I assume God is out to get me/that I'm just waiting for the proverbial "other shoe to drop."? It's kind of ridiculous and senseless to me to stay in this state of mind, while things are just kind of falling into place.

All kinds of things...that I never could have imagined falling into place without some sort of pre-thought or planning or organizing. I am truly amazed at what can happen when we get out of our own way!

And yet, I find myself wondering, "How on earth can I get a visa, let alone a 6 month visa, in just over a week, without a letter of invitation in my inbox?" There is some minimal mundane work to be done, but I know that it's out of my control. So I guess the question is, "Do I really trust God more than I trust myself?" and that's a hard question to look at all the time (for those of you out there with control issues, I know you'll relate!). I want to be done slogging through my own disbelief and honestly put my trust in the Lord. After all, He's brought me this far in the process, and I'm pretty sure He doesn't mean to thwart me.

(So, just as a side note, right now...I noticed that I got a new email in my inbox! Any takers on what it was?!)

Again, with great amazement and wonder to One who sees and knows me full well. I'll just sit at my desk and cry today, sitting in the full tension of the "now and not yet" and it'll all be a'ight!